Electrochick

From ITN World news last week:

Is it better to have a chemical straight-jacket, or experience the effects of bipolar mood swings?

There isn't an attainable balance between the two.

Has creativity and drive gone after years of paralizing depressions, or as a result of the treatment for it?

Is being treated right for people around you, or for yourself? Am I selfish for even considering it?

Being better also means no magical, creative, productive, risk-taking, invincible highs.

Using hind-sight, was it worth surviving the depressions to experience the highs?

It's why people with bipolar are on and off their meds like a whores drawers.

'Insight into your bipolar' - is an oxymoron.

I have daily debates with myself in the kitchen wondering if I should take the tablets that make me 'better', and control the wretching long enough for them to be absorbed - or don't, and maybe some of the good stuff will come back.

I don't have an answer to these and I don't want to be selfish.

I haven't seen myself on a webcam in years, not since Hubby had to work in Dublin all week for 2 years. Tomorrow he's going to film The Sensational Alex Harvey Band playing a gig in Glasgow. The club has wireless internet so he's going to try and set up a Skype video call so I can see some of the gig So we've just dug out our old webcams to see if they still work, and I got a shock! It makes me look so bad.

That's decided it - it'll be full hair and makeup for the webcam! lol.

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Edit. I really wish BCUK would stop messing with our tags grrrrrrrr.

Kate Hudson, talking in December's Elle magazine: 'I'm pretty solid, actually. I'm not, like, 110lbs.

But I'm probably heading towards that.'

110lbs is only 7 stone, 12 lbs!!!!

The world has gone insane.

I found this free online mood tracker today.

Anyone with bipolar is advised to keep a moodchart to help us recognise our mood swings so we can hopefully predict them / deal with them / prevent them / whatever. And it gives us something tangible to give to our Drs so they can see how we've been doing.

It also has a tool that texts or emails you if you need reminding to take meds, and an option to let an appropriate person access your mood chart, or have them be alerted if your mood takes a turn for the worse. Not bad for free.

Beats a spreadsheet